oh wow. I am extremely proud of myself today! It might not seem like much once i say it, but it is!

K so guess who was online today? After idk how many years of us not talking? EVAN! omg...at first yes i was shaking, but it was because i didn't know what he'd ask. And yes we talked. He got kinda mad cuz i got an attitude lmao. I wouldn't answer one of his questions and he was like "why won't you answer the question???" i was like "why does it matter?" he's like "it doesn't" i'm like "okay then." Then i asked him if he still does drugs, and he went away and then shortly disappeared after that :| lmao i think making ppl mad.

Talking to him today made me realize. I am soooo over him! I am extremely happy to have carl in my life. I never thought I could ever get over evan, but i have. It took me finding all the wrong guys *including evan* to lead me to the right one. I just hope it works out with us. He says it will, so i can only hope. I just can't believe it.

Anyways carl and i have been together for 1 year now <3 pretty awesome if you ask me =)

Oh and now onto work...lets just say its....going to be getting difficult. I found out sometime last week or the week before, that i will be handling the poll works. Eek is all i can say. They say it won't be difficult if i just listen and do what they say. I still question...why me? why me since there are so many other people who've been there longer? oh well, i guess they have faith in me.

Welp i guess that's it! =) byeeee =)

~*~Melissa~*~

Oh! Breaking Dawn is a good book, but it wasn't the greatest.

Currently Listening Taylor Swift By Taylor Swift see related

Stolen From Steph :|

Yourself
My name should be... Realize - Colbie Calliat

I think I am... I loved her first - Heartland
My thoughts are generally about.... Can I trust you with my heart? - Travis Tritt
Others see me as... You can let go - Crystal Shawanda
I dress like... Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

My favorite thing to say is... The truth about men - Tracy Byrd
My room has... Hands of a working man - Ty Herndon
My screenname has to do with... When I Think About Cheatin - Gretchen Wilson
I love to... Shoulda - Hinder
During the summer, I... Moments - Emerson Drive
If I had a duck I would name her... The Rose - Conway Twitty

Friends and Family
My best friend is... Angels in Waiting - Tammy Cochran
When hanging out with my friends, we like to...Crazy Ex-Girlfriend - Miranda Lambert

During Christmas, my family and I... April Showers - Sugarland
I think my mom is... That's When I'll Believe That You're Gone - Craig Morgan

But she thinks that I think she's...Long, Slow Kisses - Jeff bates { o.O what? o.O }
My pet's always acting like... Take Me There - Rascal Flatts
The one friend I can't stand is... Fall - Clay Walker

My friends and I usually talk about... Livin' Our Love Song - Jason Michael Carroll
I really think that my grandma has a disease called.. The Time of My Life - David Cook

Relationships
My crush/boyfriend/girlfriend is... Hold On To Me - Rissi Palmer
(S)He treats me like... It's Good To Be Back - Chris Cagle
When we're alone, I want to... No Doubt About It - Neal McCoy
We're always talking about... Better As A Memory - Kenny Chesney
(S)He looks like a... Help Me Understand - Trace Adkins

To be honest, I just want to...with him/her .... When the Sand Runs Out - Rascal Flatts
And their friends are so... I Love You This Much - Jimmy Wayne
But that's okay, cuz I love him/her like a.... Tell Me Where It Hurts - Tommy Shane Steiner
Our first kiss was/will be like... Johnny and June - Heidi Newfield

Even though (s)he acts.........I still lust after him/her... It's Not Just Me - Rascal Flatts

His/Her petname would be..... My Wish - Rascal Flatts
(S)He would call me... County Line - Sugarland
And together, we will have a life full of... Hold On to Me - Bo Bice

School
School makes me want to... Someone Else's Star - Bryan White
The only reason I go is to... Pocketful of Sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield

My teachers look like... Take Me As I Am - Faith Hill
And they act like... Remember Me - Bo Bice
But it doesn't bother me, because I'm going to...Misery Business - Paramore

Homework can go suck a...How Strong Are You Now - Rascal Flatts
Math makes me want to... Love Don't Live Here Anymore - Lady Antebellum

For lunch, I eat....I Still Miss You - Keith Anderson
If the day was any longer, I would... The Night The Lights Went Out In Georgia - Reba McEntire
The bus smells like... I'm Already There - Lonestar

And cheerleaders are annoying as... Holy Water - Big & Rich

Guidance counselors are for...Never Find A Love Like This - Natasha Bedingfield
To sum it up, school is a big, fat.... Winner At A Losing Game - Rascal Flatts
Future
I'm going to marry a... Just to See You Smile - Tim McGraw
And have a kid. His/Her name will be...She Goes All The Way - Rascal Flatts
And (s)he will look like my... Every Day - Rascal Flatts
I'll have a pet...Heaven's A Lie - Lacuna Coil

My house will be located... Love Your Memory - Miranda Lambert
My husband/wife will have... Then You Can Tell Me Goodbye - Neal McCoy
Every holiday we'll travel to... If We Loved - Chuck Wicks
Which will look like... A Man Holdin' On (To A Woman Lettin' Go) - Ty Herndon

And have a really nice...Online - Brad Paisley
Before I die, I want to... What If You Stay - Chuck Wicks

My job will be a....We Sleep Forever - Aiden
Which will suck, because... Truly, Madly, Deeply - Savage Garden
On my gravestone, it will say...Just Got Started Lovin' You - James Otto

Music
My favorite kind of music sounds like...The One In The Middle - Sarah Johns

HIM is... Vapor - Little Big Town
All American Rejects remind me of... The Truth Is Lyin' Next To You - Randy Travis
Sean Paul makes me want to...Better Than Me - Hinder
Without music, I would... Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You - Kellie Pickler

My favorite CD is played while I'm... Hillbillies - Hot Apple Pie
I dance like... Red High Heels - Kellie Pickler
Music makes me feel... I Do - Paul Brandt
And makes me think about...Starting Now - Chuck Wicks
But mostly makes me want to act like a.... Our Song - Taylor Swift
Basically, music is just... Learning How To Bend - Gary Allan

Currently Watching Barbershop 2 - Back in Business (Special Edition) By Ice Cube, Cedric the Entertainer, Sean Patrick Thomas, Eve (II), Troy Garity see related

okay so here's the deal...

I'm quitting college, too much stress.
I'm going full time at my job, after i go in front of the commission on the 6th.
I'm totally in love with an awesome guy.

He's an ex, but we've always came back to each other and you know what they say "if you set them free and they come back then it's meant to be."

He's coming to visit me soon! <3
It's not like that, so don't even go there.
He's my best friend and i'd be so lost without him.

People think I'm crazy, but I'm not. I just know what makes me happy...and he's what does that.
My life has changed, but i believe its for the better.
I'm actually happy with everything. I've accepted things...It's strange.

I'm back to being friends with an old best friend, and god I've missed talking to her.
Idk what else to say.
I know for one thing...i miss my dad like crazy....but it's getting easier...sometimes...other times its hell.

Well i guess that's it? peace.

~*~Melissa loves Carl<3~*~

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

lol i got the new tat...it says bite me!!! =) lol

i passed my first semester of college! =)

that's it

~*~Melissa~*~